I typed up a fairly long explanation for why I can’t post more but I’ll leave it at this:
M A K E
The last time that I tried to take my own life was a year ago yesterday morning, around 2:00am.
Over the last 12 months I’ve; broken 8 years of being straight edge, struggled with drugs, alcohol and a resurgence in my eating problems. I struggled with weight loss and gain. Blood, sweat, tears and loss. I have suffered for so long.
With that being said, that night was when I first decided that I needed to survive. This is the year that broke me free from so much. I put myself through medications, therapy and inpatient care in a hospital. I lived there for a few weeks. I made the decision to become Vegan after a few years of being vegetarian. I have joined new bands and improved upon my ability to play music, sing and write. I’ve made some of the best friends I have ever known, and dropped the poisonous people from my life like I’ve needed to for years.
Here I am a year later. I no longer cut myself. I exercise daily. I have two jobs, a cat, and a big fucking beard. I move into my new apartment on the first, I have a car, I’m going back to school next spring and things are constantly trying to look up.
Yesterday and the 22nd were two hard days for me. I almost got laid off from both of my jobs and I was really having bad thoughts. My friends brought me out of any miserable thoughts I had and they always help to make my life worth living.
Thank you to all of you; real life friends or just tumblr acquaintances. You all have helped me get to where I am now and it means the world.
I got invited to girls night. Apparently I’ve been missing out on some wild times.
Code Orange Kids | Liars//Trudge
I don’t really know. Recently convinced my warehouse manager that I hooked up with his daughter. I’ve never met her but a coworker showed me her Facebook so we just kind of filled in holes to a story with the information on there. I mentioned coke, blood and daddy issues.
He was livid hahahahaha
Last person I texted was my friend Kim. Ohhhhhh yeah. She’s talented, understanding and so easy to talk to. We have a lot of connections that aren’t really easy to explain and I don’t regularly have any connections with people. She’s a wonderful human being all around and I hope she is someone who I can keep in my life for a long time to come.
No. Just a good friend.